Monday, August 04, 2008

The Loss of One

I went to today's ultrasound feeling pretty good but I left completely devastated. The tech got me situated and within a few minutes she jumped up and left the room. This seemed strange to me but I didn't think much of it. The tech came back with Dr. H and chatted with me as the tech started the ultrasound again. The first one we looked at was Baby A and she is growing great and roughly weighs 1 lb 9 oz.

Then we moved onto Baby B. At this time, Dr. H sits down next to me and has to tell me that Baby B has no heartbeat. I had to have them prove it to me on the ultrasound. She apparently hadn't grown much since the last ultrasound (6/24) and measured considerably smaller than Baby A. However, at my last visit (7/28) we do know she had heart beat so it happened sometime between then and now.

Since I am not having contractions and Baby A is not under any stress we will just continue with bed rest and weekly visits to see Dr. H. At the first sign of Baby A not growing or under stress she will be delivered.

All this news has left me completely numb! I still am trying to process all this information so I may not be posting much over the upcoming days.

35 comments:

litlaskvis said...

I am so sorry Dawn. If there is anything I can do, just let me know sweetheart.

***hugs***

Oma said...

I am so sorry Dawn. That is just so heartbreaking for you.

livnlaf said...

Bless your heart. I'm so sorry for you and your family's loss.

Becky K in OK said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

suequeblue said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I had a pregnancy end at 22 weeks and I know how devastating it can be. You will be in my thoughts.

stitcherw said...

Oh Dawn, I'm so sorry. What a terrible heartbreak for you and your family. {{hugs}}
Sue

Itching To Stitch said...

Dawn ~ I know there aren't any words to make things better at this point. I will keep you in my prayers.

Renee said...

Sending hugs your way... Love You!

Sharon said...

Dawn, I am so very sorry-such inadequate words I know. I will be thinking of you. Many {{{hugs}}}

Kendra said...

Oh Dawn, I am so sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

(((HUGS)))

Kerry said...

Oh Dawn, what awful news. Thinking of you.

Michelle said...

I've been lurking for awhile but I just wanted to say I'll be praying for you.

Cindy said...

I felt the pain too, but be strong, Dawn. {{{Hugs}}}

coonieandplume said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Dawn {{{Hugs}}}

shakatak66 said...

I'm so sorry to read of your loss - words seem so futile, so please accept these {{hugs}} for you and the family xx

cathymk said...

I'm so sorry, Dawn! ((hugs))

Chiloe said...

I'm very sad for you Dawn .(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

ollie1976 said...

I'm sorry Dawn. Big hugs.
-Jen

Jennifer said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss! I am sending you good thoughts for strength and comfort.

Vonna said...

Dawn, I don't have eloquent words, but please know I am terribly sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I will be thinking of you.

Cathy said...

Oh, Dawn, I'm so sorry.

Carla said...

I'm so sorry Dawn...sending lots of hugs to you and your family.

Carol said...

Dawn, I am sooooo sorry to hear this. I am so glad baby A is OK, but it is devastating about baby B. I will keep you in my prayers and I know you will need time to cope with this... {{{HUGS}}}

zoomcity said...

{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}

I'm so sorry.

My best wishes for you and Baby A.

Sally said...

Dawn I am so sorry. My thoughts are with and your family. {{{{hugs}}}}

Shelley said...

I'm not a regular commenter, but I just wanted to express my condolences on the loss of your little baby. I am happy to hear that your other girl is doing well so far. You will be in my thoughts.

laurie in iowa said...

I'm so sorry to hear this sad news. Sending lots of hugs your way Dawn.

Paisley said...

I am sooo sorry, Dawn. My heart aches for you. Will keep your family in my prayers.

Aussie Stitcher said...

This is such sad news Dawn, I am so sorry to hear this. Be gentle with yourself and take care, {{{{HUGS}}}}.

Dawn B. said...

Bless you, I know this can't be easy but the lord is watching over you right now.

Svenja said...

I'm so sorry, Dawn. Sending you lots of good thoughts. {{{hugs}}}

Lennu said...

Oh Dawn, I'm so sorry to hear this! It's such sad news, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. {{{HUGS}}}

Stitchingranny said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. Such a difficult thing for you to come to terms with. There are no words if there were someone would have said them by now I am sure but please know you are in our thoughts and prayers.

Ranae said...

I'm so sorry! Dawn sending lots of (((hugs))) to you and your family.
Take care

Heather said...

I am very sad for you and your family Dawn, I wish you the best in regaining your strength *hugs*