Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Bad Day

Today was just one of those days that seem to never end. It was raining today and normally those are my best stitching days but not today. It started off with me reading a blog I shouldn't have read. It was about a preemie baby who lost her battle last evening. That of course, stirred up emotions in me about my sweet Morgan which I had thought I had buried deep down. I am not a cryer (is that even a word?) but damn it, the tears just started pouring down my cheeks.




I really try to keep my chin up because I know I am blessed that we didn't lose Megan but I still question myself if it was something I did or didn't do right. I know in my mind that I didn't do anything wrong but that doesn't take the pain away in my heart. I also know people try to ease my pain by saying "It just wasn't meant to be" but that doesn't make it easier. It just makes me want to know "Why me" even more.

Anyways......that is the reason I didn't get a lot of stitching done today. I started a freebie from Pat & Gloria yesterday. I haven't gotten real far on it so the picture kind of looks funny but it is progress.





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Happy Stitching!

9 comments:

Kim B said...

I think those are things people say when they don't know what to say. Really they should just tell you they don't know what to say, lend an ear and a shoulder, and let you know they're there to offer love and support. And Dawn, I don't know what to say. Your loss is a great one. You and your family are in my prayers. Hugs!

Mylene said...

(((big hugs)))

Irishenchantment said...

hope you are ok dawn if you need to talk i am here :)

Mãe da Rita said...

I think it's a big loss and it will be always difficult to deal with, sure you didn't do anything wrong, it's just the things are like this. A big hug for you. What will be your work? I'm curious to see it...

Cathy said...

I'm sorry, Dawn.

Chiloe said...

When Pierre was born and ended up in NICU, I also thought I may have done something (like breathing chemicals when they fumigated one house or something I'm not even aware of) . When he got cancer, I thought once again, I may be somehow responsible for that (stress, chemiclas, or something) I guess it's a natural feeling for moms to want to protect their kids !!! Sometimes it helps to cry and release some stress deep inside ;-)

hugs.

Carla said...

(((((HUGS)))))

Von said...

When you've had such a huge loss, it's only natural that a similar story will stir up your emotions, Dawn. I doubt they'll ever go away completely. Go ahead and shed your tears, never forgetting sweet Morgan; then remember all your blessings and try to be a blessing to others. Twin mom hugs to you, sweetie!

Aussie Stitcher said...

I am sorry to hear that you had a bad day, it doesn't matter how well we feel we cope with certain situations, sometimes things just creep up on us and take us by surprise. I still feel sad when I think of my miscarriage, nearly seven years ago now. Take care Dawn, let the emotions flow, I know it can help ((((HUGS))))